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I attempted to use all logic and scientific understanding to comprehend my Nikon, but all attempts to do so proved futile. It's so freaking weird.

After 3 months of buying the camera, I woke up one fine day to realise the mode dial wasn't working. So I contacted Nikon and the person told me it must be a problem with the contact point. So I had to fix it, but since I knew a trick to make it work, I pushed back the appointment for my little baby...A few months later, it decided to switch on and off on it's own, and by then I couldn't take pictures anymore. So I knew i had to go and fix it...Contemplated a little while longer till I called Harvey Norman and told them about my problem. So finally, I decided to fix it before I go for camp next week. My plan was to go down to Nikon Service Centre yesterday. So on Monday night, I decided to test my camera for one last time. You see, to confirm the problem and tell the Nikon person as specifically as possible...and amazingly, it just suddenly worked! Like fully functionally, perfectly normally, not failing me in ANY aspect. My question is, HOW? How it something that failed on me for more than a year, suddenly worked when I decided I want to fix it's problem? Any logical explanation is not possible. If it's a problem of contact with the mode dial, not using it for a few months could improve the contact? If it's a problem with the circuit board that causes it to switch off on its own, then the circuit board could automatically rebuild itself to make the camera work properly? HOW?

Collin says I always manage to figure things out myself. THIS, I can't. =.= I'm glad it worked though. At least I didn't have to go down to Tanjong Pagar and get lost there. ㅋㅋㅋ! Maybe God was consoling me for the fact that I won't get my dslr till maybe a month or two later. I'll make do with my functional semi-pro for now. ><

엘리슨.

kpop love.

I'm home trying to catch up on the videos that I haven't been watching. This video is really cute. where Ft talk about Shinee's Key. Yay, I love Shinee and F.t so this vid is good proof of how they are actually good friends behind the scene. Jaejin talked about Key's almighty introduction and Hongki laughed at him, saying that his intro should be "Hello, I'm Buddha's finger, Lee Jaejin!". ^^



Another reason why you should love f.t! cause they are serious though they have fun. When Hongki sings, he gets into his singing! Although he's just as playful. Kekek. he wanted to laugh at the start. Beware though, the irritating MC kept screaming during the song. =.=

Gaaaa, gotta get back to watching Shinee on 지금은 꽃미남시대. 잘가!~

Elison.

많이 아파.

Hadn't been feeling very well lately. Must be that my mind has been too preoccupied. I came home from school today and rested, slept for like 4hours...but I woke up feeling worse than before. Took 2 paracetamols and couldn't go to bed thereafter. Yesterday I scalded my hand when I put it into the oven. Today hasn't been a good day either. I took the morning train and experienced how insanely rude and kiasu Singaporeans are. I fell down and scraped my knee against the drain when I alighted outside the YIH bus stop. I had diarrhoea and felt really groggy. Man... I took comfort that I met some very nice seniors at the matriculation fair. Left my contact details at so many booths I can barely remember. University life is so complicated with all the module bidding, and growing up to be an adult. I need a vision.

I almost forgot to check my test results today. Anyway, I passed. :) I will be able to know if I get the module after round 3A bidding. Hopefully I'll get it.

I had a really good quiet time today. The chinese worship song is really very anointed. :)

I watched today's music bank. Hongki's 애교 reminds me of him singing FT vs Pri. ^^ and Seunghyun sounds so much more confident today! Minnie was so cute singing along with Hongki though he doesn't have a mic. 2ne1 won. =.= by 7 points. But nonetheless, there's still inkigayo. SM hwaiting!

Elison.

panadol and alcohol?

Yea, I know this is not like me. But i want to get drunk and hopefully for a moment stop thinking about everything and all. If only it was this easy.

If this is what you need. I'm sorry.

Elison.

for paedos.

Here's Taemin for all pedophiliac noonas. Yes, he's ONLY 16. Haha.

Just checked my mail and I'm flailing cause I manage to get attached to a Korean SEP buddy! Yay! I haven't contacted her yet, so for now, I only know that she's from Yonsei University. And she's the only one from Yonsei! Sounds lonely. But I guess she must be really smart, since she comes from one of the S.K.Y. league in Korea. I'm excited to meet her! Now this has got me excited for school! :)

Ah, 2 more weeks before school starts and many things are already happening! I'm gonna be busy soon!~ ><>

I love lovely. We and our puppy talk. :) <3

Elison.

머리가 아파요...

I thought about this for many days now. I really miss you. I think it's so pathetic that I have to find out about you from someone else. I know many things happened, but I don't know anything about them at all. Do we have to end up this way? I want things to go back to how they were, but just impossible eh? 가슴이 아프다. 하지만 어떻하면 난 모르겠다.바보 멍청이.

Why do people not talk about things when it happens? Why do we seek other forms of expression to vent our frustrations? It only worsens. It only hurts. It only results in a greater crack in a relationship that will take more time to mend later. 정말 나이브...

난 생각보다 더 어렵다.
사람의 마음을 난 못 알겠다.

머리가 아파요...많이 아프다.

Elison.

cause you had a bad day.

The following conversation has been translated from Korean to English for the convenience of readers.

Teacher: How do you find Singapore's weather?

Me: Warm, very very warm!

Teacher: Do you hate it?

Me: Yes.

Teacher: Why?

Me: *stares at her and into space*

Apparently this was what happened during my Korean oral today. HAHA, interesting huh?

I'm super tired today, woke up early so that I could do a bit more of studying. Aye, so, how did the test go? I don't know. How will I do? I don't know. I hope I will pass my essays. Yea, I wish my Korean was better. =.= When I saw the teacher, I was so nervous! I totally forgot so many things. When I took 96 on the way to the mrt station, I calmed down and thought about it. I could have answered it so much better if I was calmer! :(

I made many mistakes today. It's very bad. I think I've been too drained. Like after the test, I just felt like not doing anything. I don't think I'm going to touch my guitar or Korean for the next few days... ><>

I'm having a backache, a buttache, a fingerache...everything also ache...I'm old. =.=

Currently doing some research in an attempt to diagnose my disease. I'm mottephobic or lepidopterophobic, since there is not exact term for the fear of butterflies. I can't imagine how someone can be photophobic or heliophobic except for like a zombie?! And a photic sneeze reflex is really interesting. Photic sneeze reflex is a genetic autosomal dominant trait, which causes sneezing when exposed suddenly to bright light, possibly many times consecutively. LOL, imagine that. Man, I really love Biology. Why am I in Business anyway? Oh yea, after some research, I realised I usually have migraines without aura. That's very interesting. Ah, and also, in the past, they drill a hole in your head to treat migraines. WOW. How ingenious.

Gotta go catch some sleep soon.

Elison.

미안해.

미안해! 난 요즘 바빴어요...

I'm sorry, I had been busy so I didn't have time to really update.

This picture was taken at riverwalk on saturday when we went for the blood donation drive together. It ended up with only james, jeremy and me donating, cause the rest didn't have their consent forms. I'm so proud of us! We overcame the fear of pain and needles and did our part in saving lives. :)

Anyway, after some encouragement, I finally decided to register for the language test yesterday. The test is this friday. I really hope to do well. 어쩌죠? 아이고...난 자신이없어...

I'm pretty amazed that my cassette player, the one that I've owned since primary school, is still pretty much fully functional! AMAZING huh?

I thought about many things lately. Have I not been doing enough? What is it more that I can do? The things in my heart, who would know and understand? Why are things going the way they are? All the efforts that I've made over the past year just went down the drain like that, and yet I sit here, not being able to do anything at all. Sometimes I take it too hard upon myself. I wish I could just ease a little. I also wish I can be better at it, but why does it seem that everytime I do it, I fail at excelling in it? Oh God, help me to love beyond my own ability. Many times I may not understand, but God, there are things that I still pray for hoping that things will take a turn, yet at the end of it all, my trust is in You. Oh God...제발요...제발.

Elison.

updates.

I really like this shot cause you can see SHINee and Hongki together, but Onew and Minho got cut out... :(

Ahh, anyway, my threadless tees just came! YAY! I'm so happy to finally get the clothes. It took about 2 weeks. But nonetheless it's pretty! :D

See, I haven't registered for my Korean Placement Test, I'm kind of afraid. I don't know if I would be able to do well. Cause I'm using the sogang book and not kyunghee. But I've been studying a lot for it already. And there's oral. I don't know...I don't seem to have much faith. It's like I'm okay talking to my classmates, but talking to the natives gets me tongue-tied and all. Aye...HELP~But I really think that these few days my Korean has improved a lot. New grammar, new ways to form sentences. I guess as I study more grammar, I realised what I studied earlier becomes linguistically and socially irrelevant. This language has SO much to learn! When will I ever master it....ㅠ.ㅠ

Ah, I bet I haven't talked about the book. It's called 황소와 도깨비. It's really interesting. Finally finished hearing the whole story yesterday. But I haven't finished studying it yet. 참, and the writer is very amazing. He died at 27, but at that tender age, he has written many titles and Korean students study his works for literature. Isn't it amazing? 훌륭해요! But poor guy, I don't know why he died so young, so don't ask me. ><

오빠 정말 고맙습니다. 오빠는 없이면, 난 어떻게하면 모르겠어요. 그래서 고마워요. 가르치기 전에 한국말이 영어보다 어려워요.그분이 제일 잘 가르쳐요! 은혜는 평생 잊기 않겠어요.난 약속하고 한국어를 열심히 공부할 거예요.오빠도 영어를 열심히 공부해? "티끌모아 태산."오빠는 기억해? ^^

I like the weather lately. It's not too warm. In fact, it's cooling. 좋아서...

Elison.

contemplates.

Today is a bad day I suppose. How should I put it? It isn't exactly bad, but bad things did happen you see...

Dragonboat. Aye, why did it have to rain? Because of the rain we had so little time on the water, we barely got started and the race ended. =.= It'd be so much more fun if the hands-on was much longer..really.

Next, I had to take the extremely long and chilly 67 home. It was so crowded with people, you'd know what I mean if you know where the bus passes through. =.=

After that, I was supposed to meet Mr Kim. We already agreed to meet. But he didn't show up! fndjasowruiaskl;'! I bet he fell asleep cause until now, he hasn't replied my smses or given me a call. ifpofkcal;sd,lawkeropk;L,! So I ended up with Bron, Chenyang, Mingjie and Sarah. Oh yea, I partly lost my voice by the way. o.O

If not for Mr Kim, I wouldn't have been waiting at the mrt station, and seen that person. To me, she'll always be a hurt in my heart, an old wound that seems to get inflamed time and time again. Let not the past hold me. To me she was so important, now she's gone. We stood at different corners of the station, no words. Why? We used to be so close...Maybe the reason why Kexin is so dear to me also cause they looked alike? I don't know...but I know Kexin won't leave me like she did...sigh.

Indeed, it was a looooong day. Sigh.

Elison.

oh...두부...

I really like this picture of Onew. And I love the little sketch at the side! It looks so much like Onew! haha, no one can ever resist the cuteness of Onew. ><

Hmm, today was spent rather meaningfully I guess. Woke up early in the morning to practise my guitar, then rested like for an hour or so. After that I baked gingerbread cookies to bring for cell group meeting tomorrow. Then I realised I couldn't eat it cause I was fasting! I'm so duh la, I couldn't even tell if it was cooked and all. But thank God it turned out just great! ><>

After that we went for dinner at Clarke Quay and we saw Yunrui there. We were shopping at Clarke Quay when we got psychoed by this auntie who tried to scam me into buying this vest. It's like freaking 70 bucks can. And the label doesn't look like it's MIK at all. She was shocked when she realised I could read the Korean words on her catalogue. And no, she's not korean. Smart enough, we left the place and walked to city hall. Van couldn't find the bag she wanted, so we walked to Marina Square. LOL, we saw Lucas there at Club Marc. So funny to meet him there. And our awkward conversation. HAHA.

Yes, and Zara was on sales. Wah so happy, I got like 3 new tops for about 100 bucks. But it was definitely worth the buy as compared to that nicely designed MIC vest. ><>

Ah, I suppose this post is rather boring? I'm bored. Korean grammar is killing me. I hope the phone won't ring. LOL.

Elison.

재미있었어요!

5! LOL, ah, I was so tired yesterday, so pardon for not updating my blog although I wanted to.

Hmm, yesterday I went to the beach with Kyungsoo and his Korean friends. Ah, I must say, initially it was very awkward and all, cause they were mostly speaking in Korean and since they've been together for so long, it was difficult to be included in them. And I guess I wasn't myself, cause I got super quiet unlike the usual me. LOL, yea, I can be quiet one okay. We swam and played a little in water, then ate some food that Kyungsoo bought from Korea and sandwiches that Minjung made. We also played GoStop! Ah, it was fun! Initially I was watching Kyungsoo, Steven and Minsun playing, I couldn't catch it at all. So I begged Kyungsoo to teach me. So Steven and him taught Minji and me how to play it. So the next game, Minji and I played it! First round, Steven played alone while Kyungsoo paired with me, Minji with Minsun. And we won! ><>

Hmm, but in all, it was a good experience la. I guess for very long, I've not felt what it means to join a new group. Like it was a chance for me to experience how a new friend would feel when he or she comes to church or cell group. It takes alot of courage to be willing to even meet up with these people you hardly know, let alone spend a day withe them. So I learned that we need to be more inclusive of other people...so that they won't feel so awkward and all. Hmm, yea. n444 jiayou! <3

Elison.