fade in fade out.

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Life is like a vicious cycle, taking it's toll on me. While one event fades into the background, another fades out into the centre stage. It seems like it just never ends, does it?

Just in case some of you start to misunderstand, my life too is like a roller coaster ride. There are times when I cry thinking about certain things, but the next minute i'm all chirpy and butterflying around. It's not that I'm never sad, it's not that my life is good. I just think I should have a little more faith. just a teeny weeny bit more.

Like now, I just wish this would fade away for me.

Stephie.

월요일의 우울한 기분이 없는데요!

YAY, it's finally Monday again. I know how many people sincerely hate me saying this, but because it's the holidays, mondays are less tiresome when held in comparison with the weekends. And I like mondays cause it's my stayhome days these few months, it helps me to recuperate from the weekends. :)

Haha, yesterday had so much fun dancing and acting. LOL, and tim, i keep thinking about you mimicking lulu with the bounce bounce ball. LOL!

It's bidding time yet again. Seriously, i hate bidding for modules. And I really want to take macroecons this semester! Why am i not allocated this mod! Zzz, I don't know if I should specialise. MKT2401? 21 slots for A3, can I get it? :S Urgh, but thankfully, the modules in NUS and KU are very mappable, so i don't run into an issue of taking useless modules next semester when I go for exchange. I checked the modules for SNU and they weren't half as mappable, thank God for giving me KU and not SNU.

I guess I really need direction from God. Before praying, I got reminded of this song and ended up worshipping the Lord.

THERE IS A PLACE IN YOUR HEART

I AM LONGING TO FIND
WON'T YOU SHOW ME
THERE IS A PLACE I KNOW
I CAN RUN TO AND HIDE
WON'T YOU SHOW ME
SHOW ME
SHOW ME
SHOW ME YOUR HEART
SHOW ME
SHOW ME
SHOW ME YOUR HEART

Very old song yes i guess. But it really expresses what I wanted to tell God. :) A man devises his plans, but God directs his path.

I've wanted to say this, and I shall say it here. Stop being childish and stop thinking that I've not moved on. You act like you've moved on, so can you please just do so? It's been so long. Which part of making me uncomfortable do you not understand? No, I don't think about the past, and neither do I want to do that. I'm happy where I am and I've never regretted since that day I chose to obey God. Look, I'm totally okay with being friends, but don't cross my boundaries cause it'd only make you sorry. Please show me that you've learned something for the past few years, or else I would just feel really sad for you. There's really more to life than just being in love or getting into relationships.

Stephie.

lately.

Hello everybody! My apologies, wanted to update this blog like eons ago, but couldn't find the kairos moment for it. You know, the right weather, the right mood, the right topic, the right words. I need that creative source of influence to blog. Haha, okay, I know, I'm just blabbering.

Hmm, so grandma was allowed to go home this week. Thankfully, it wasn't what the doctors suspected it to be. It was confirmed to be merely an infection yet they kept her at the hospital for a week, testing on her like she's some guinea pig. I'm really quite amazed that the hospital is that inefficient. With an ageing population ahead of us, I'm not quite sure if the hospitals are able to sustain then. :S

아, 정말 미안해요. 여러분 저는 많이 보고 싶지요? 블로그 쓰고 싶지만 좋은 시간이 없는 것 같아요. ㅋㅋㅋ 제가 좋은 날씨, 좋은 기분, 좋은 토픽, 좋은 말을 모두 다 있었으면 블로그 쓸 수 있어요. ㅋㅋㅋ 영감이 필요 해요. ㅋㅋㅋ그래, 나는 거짓말을 하고 있어요. ㅋㄷ

Stephie.

Falling.

FIND ME IN YOUR HOLINESS
LEAD ME IN YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS
HOW I LOVE YOU
BEAUTIFUL SAVIOR
WHEN I'M WEAK YOU MAKE ME STRONG
BEARING MY CROSS I CARRY ON
HOW I NEED YOU
HEAVENLY FATHER

SEARCH MY HEART O LORD
YOU KNOW MY EVERY THOUGHT
AN OPEN BOOK TO YOU
I PLACED MY ALL IN YOUR HANDS

FALLING AT YOUR FEET
AS MY WHOLE WORLD FADES AWAY
FALLING AT YOUR FEET
LET MY LIFE BE WHOLLY THINE
MY LIFE BE WHOLLY THINE
JESUS

EMMANUEL
EMMANUEL
ABBA FATHER, NEVER LET ME GO

Picture credits Phil Pringle.

Worshipping late into the night is enjoyable. Old songs are nice too. :)

Stephie.

lovely weather☁

I'm sitting on my bed at home - blogging. Finally enjoying some solitude after a hectic week. The weather is just fantastic, considering the rain earlier in the morning, its still cooling in the afternoon. I simply love the rain.

Yesterday's combined cell group meeting with n284 was absolutely fantastic! All of us had to prepare a 3 minute sermon on faith and preach it to the rest. It was great to hear everyone share about what they think faith is about. And I suppose like what Meitong said, our experiences in life shaped our beliefs of faith. When faith is shared, it inspires and stirs each one of us. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. Hearing from everyone was great because now we know, there's a preacher in all of us! Haha. It's fun, I want to do it again. The satisfaction you get knowing that you've prepared a great word/offering message is just splendid. You're just waiting for God to move during the meeting. But beyond the fun, it's really how the God uses us to release His Word to touch the hearts of the people. I'm just happy to be used as a channel.

I've been thinking about a lot of things actually. But i'm not very sure if all that I am wondering about should be written here. Oh wells.

God is just amazing, isn't He? Because of all things, God gave us the freedom of choice. Hmm, sticky.

I'm craving for crepes. Gonna meet James for dinner! :D

Love,

Stephie.

hanging out.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I'm currently out at Scape macs with two cuties Karuna and Saunders. The kids are doing their work while i'm on my Mac. :)

Silly me forgot that my shoulders are sunburnt and i still brought my handbag out. =.= AH, i deserve it la.

Spent my last 2 days at Sentosa. Yesterday's Shrekotsa was really tiring but enjoyable. :) Came home after zone outing and had a wonderful steamboat dinner with my family. I WAS SO HUNGRY, not having enough food yesterday made me eat like a pig. :D I fell asleep at 12 yesterday, and woke up at 1130am today. So i didn't just eat like a pig I slept like a pig too! haha, sorry, had to make up for all the lost sleep you see.

I remembered the last time Barry asked me what drives me to want to be a cgl and I couldn't answer, now I think I somehow might have the answer to this question already. Youth, a precious time in life when they are most readily shaped and molded. I feel the budding passion for the youths lately. Maybe that is what drives me. Gotta pray and get that confirmed.

RAWR. me hungry again. :D waiting for 7pm to come and meet the rest of the peeps. HAHA. love DM.

너, 나쁜 남자야.

난 널 싫어해.

우리는 이년전에는 다 끝났어.

알 찮아?!

Stephie.

AC 2010

The phenomenal 5 days have finally ended. Wow, it's amazing. One of the most tiring 5 days ever, but the presence of God is just amazing. The drama team did stunning too! I'm so glad that I'm in such an awesome ministry, cheering one another in the the competitions, praying together before productions, sitting together for services, and of course! Acting on the same stage with one another. Love it ttm. Now that the conference has ended, its time to reflect on what have been taught, what has been learned, and the action plan ahead. :)

Due to the lack of sleep, despite sleeping for like 11h, i am still soooo tired. And there are still remnants of things to be done! tsk tsk!

Yes, i got my results today. Man, i would say it's DISAPPOINTING! sighhhh, when i'm done being sad, i need to work harddddddd... and pray that application to KU will succeed. rawr. I NEED to go to Korea, outta Singapore. yes.

And to my GORGEOUS BOSS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Thanks for making me who I am today, the opportunities you have given to me, the encouragement you gave, and most importantly, the love. Thank you for making Drama Ministry such an awesome place to serve God in! Thank you for loving me!I LOVE YOU BOSS! Gonna miss you and Sandy when you guys leave to study in US! :( Hope that this year will be the best year yet ever for you! Stay gorgeous ALWAYS Boss! :D

Okay, off to paint my nails then do those things that need to be done. HAH!

Stephie.