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LOL, Infinity Challenge is so cool!Sorry to john, but I found it really interesting that Park Myung Soo seems so suitable to be a SNSD member! See...
I don't mean the pose, I mean I really think PMS belongs with SNSD. LOLx...

Anyway, I'm videoing all I can today since I'll have less time to do so when I start work tml...So, I was on allkpop today, and there was some discussion about MR videos. Netizens have been spreading MR removed videos all over the internet lately. MR stands for Music Recorded while in MR removed videos, the music and instruments are minimized, resulting in a maximization of the artist vocals. It's really cool cause it helps you gauge the singers you're supporting, whether or not they really possess good vocals, or are just pretty/handsome faces.

Ignoring Lee Soo Man and whatever he had done to his artistes, we have to admit that SM entertainment has some of the BEST singers in the entertainment industry. SHINee, TVXQ, originally Shinhwa, BoA, etc. SM really knows how to screen and select those with potential then groom them into awesome singers.

dang, I'm bored. I want to eat salmon.

Ahh! I want to watch kkot! 2 more days! Hyun Joong cut his hair, now he looks so much like jaejoong! the hair is so similar.

it's time to grow.

Elison.

kkotboda namja

There are some reasons why I really hate watching korean dramas.

Number 1.
They make you cry like nobody's business. Episode 14 of kkotboda namja was so horribly sad. Seeing how Goo Joon Pyo treated Jandi despite his love for her was just too much to handle. Plus, the evil mother of his at work, I could just die from detesting her. I cried so much! Just feeling the emotions given out by the actors and actresses...I must say they are really good at giving and taking, bouncing off each other.

Number 2.
There are those super sweet guys that make you feel like you'd want a guy like them in the future. LOL, looking at how sweet Jihoo is to Jandi although he knows that Jandi's heart is for JoonPyo, he only wants to try his best to cheer her up, and make her happy. The thing is...he knows just how to do it! Success. Yi Jung is very cute and sweet too, deep inside, he's starting to develop feelings to Gaeul..and it was interesting how he was standing up for Jandi against JoonPyo, teaching him what a real man is. Aww...korean dramas.

Lalala, I think Kim Hyun Joong is soooooo good at being Yoon Ji Hoo...Not just because he plays the violin like me okay...it's the charisma he exudes! charming...

Okay, enough sobbing for the day. next episode will have to wait till monday. I've gotta go get ready to go out...

Now playing- SHINee 그녀가 헤어졌다 (One for me)

A lot of thoughts came when I picked up the phone just before.
She said her boyfriend whom she loved cheated on her yesterday
Even though I’m going to the girl who’s crying,
I can’t suppress my happiness.
I have been waiting for this day
The day I can lend her my shoulder and wipe away her tears

I want to make a place by her side, always by her side, not as a friend, but as a man
I’ll hold her in my arms and tell her I’ll protect her from sadness

Over there is the girl crying with her neck down on her two knees.
I first take out a handkerchief and hand it to her
“Forget it! You will forget it, trust me.”
I cheered you up like that
And said to find someone who’ll only look at you
She was sorry, but she looked more prettier
Definitely today more than yesterday

I want to make a place by her side, always by her side, not as a friend, but as a man
I’ll hold her in my arms and tell her I’ll protect her from sadness

The time has come
Even though she’s in my arms, crying,
It’s the time I can
Become a comfortable place for her (Like a blanket)
I’ll become a dependable man that you can look at.
You are the one for me!

I want to make a place by her side, always by her side, not as a friend, but as a man
I’ll hold her in my arms and tell her I’ll protect her from sadness

I want to make a place in her heart where no one can break into.
Even when you’re in pain or full of tears, you’ll be a strong person who’ll never fall down

Oh! Not again will we let go after being apart and her finding me
I’ll hold the girl I’ve been waiting for in my arms. Leave her to me, believe me.
That person is the one who left a scar on your heart! Crazy!
The unforgettable memories are disappearing. Love is forgotten by love.
Now just look at me standing beside you.

Okay, sometimes it seems as though the lyrics makes no sense, but somethings are lost in translation..tsk tsk

간다..

Elison.

WOW

LOL, Key looks really sinister here! But still nice in the hanbok. LOL.

I was browsing through the net. Micky Yoochun owns an Audi R8. The Audi R8 is a 420 horsepower supercar and costs around $125,000 US (even more expensive in Korea around $200,000 US). *faints* It's a new addition to his collection of cars: a mini cooper and a Lexus IS350. Yunho drives an Audi A4, jaejoong a BMW, junsu has 2 cars, an SM7 and Audi A4, Changmin an Audi A4. These stars are sooo rich. tsk tsk...when will it be my turn? LOL, fancy thinking about this when I can't even drive!

I'm BORED. tsk tsk. poor internet connection. I think my bro switched off the router. =.=

I'll be back to blog again soon.

Elison.

사랑 인데 기분

SS501-find

From me, from me too
It is changed sincere heart
I say “What should I do? What should I do?”
It is but a extremely faraway, a very faraway love
It is you whom my heart
Definitely can’t give up

I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again

Without you, even without you
Will i be able to live well?
It is always the two of us even in the dream that dream..
Resemblance of you, the times that resembles you
It is the lingering love
That I definitely can’t give up

I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again

The empty love, even with the sadness burning in the chest
I will not be able to push you out from my heart
Because the imperfect me is insignificant
Until the falling tears
Submerge every single memories
For you are my love, I will surely find you

초라 한 기분 뭣 같아?
Many things said not done.
Steph! what have you been doing?!

내가 무슨 짓을 한 거지?
일어나! 당신이 너무 오랫동안 잠을 잤죠. too long, too long.

Elison.

initiation.

This is something i've been thinking about the entire week. It's been bugging me, so i have to write.

Sometimes, I think we just need to look beyond ourselves a little. We may be busy with whatever we may have, and most of the time, we use them conveniently as excuses to sit back and do nothing. We just watch on. Afterall, someone else would do it for us. We're always waiting, waiting for someone else to do something. Unless we are asked to, we try not to even do anything at all. We have no problems taking initiation in one aspect though, to slip into our comfort zone and move according to our flesh.

What does it mean to repent? what does it mean to be convicted? There needs to be action, afterall it all speaks louder than words. It's easy for us to be temporarily inspired to do something after hearing a conversation with our leaders, but it takes persistency and consistency to actually do it, for a long time. Let's not be matchsticks that barely burn for a while and then turns into ashes, never to be used again.

I don't think it requires much intellect in this. I mean, seriously, we serve a great God. Ideas, inspirations and creativity that comes from Him. Why can't we allow the Holy Spirit to speak to us and do something that will touch others' hearts? you know, after He speaks to us for some time, and we refuse to move, some day He might just forget about even speaking to us.

Don't always be waiting. it's time to start something.

Don't make me feel like i'm doing things on my own. I need support too, show me you care, if at all.

Elison.

東方神起

Yea, it's a japanese song. Okay, i've not moved on to listening to jpop yet. It's just that this song on it's own is really beautiful, and the harmonisation is just wonderful. Seriously, i don't really think it matters if they are called tohoshinki or dong bang shin ki or tvxq. For a group with so many names, just read it by their hanja! 東方神起. Whatever language of songs their sing, be it japanese, chinese or korean, we just love their vocal abilities and harmonisation right? They didn't start off as an acapella group for nothing eh? amazing vocals and harmonisation. I wish I could harmonise too. rawr.

Hmm, it's been like almost a week since I blogged? La, I really wanted to write something here since wednesday, but hadn't found the time to do so till today, so I only pen down my thoughts elsewhere. I had been thinking a lot actually, this week of morning prayer meetings and fellowship with kenn and jon the rest yielded some interesting conversations that set me thinking. But I don't think I want to write them here. LOL. But it was fun! Hahah, having know this people for more than half my life, it's sure fun talking about the times when we were young! :)) One take off? Many things are caught, not taught.

I don't know. I'm not a very busy person. But when it comes to those outings, it always happens that I have things on. I'm sorry guys, I don't mean to be missing in action. I don't mind doing catching up..rawr, I musn't find excuses, gotta learn to honour my word. 미안..미안.

Anyway, i'm supposed to go swimming with nini, and I think she's still sleeping...omo, key has the same polaroid camera as me! but his is pink.=.= Polaroid has to be one of the greatest and smartest inventions ever! It is an art.

Elison.

contemplative mode

I'm having reservations about blogging at this moment although I would really like to keep this page updated. Firstly because it's already late at night, and people tend not to be themselves at this kind of hour. Secondly because there are simply too many thoughts running through my head at this moment, it's hard to sit down and consolidate them. But whatever it is, I still decided to jot some things down...so yea, I'm here.

Sometimes, I can't help but keep asking God why. Why things happen, why do people make the decisions they make, why is it sometimes so hard and many questions like that. I think without praying, I'd really go crazy, trying to answer/search for the answers to the endless stream of questions I have in my head. I seem to have a need to frequently remind myself that there are things that are beyond my circle of influence, and I should just be doing my best and giving God the rest. But of course, the measurement of best is often hard to determine and very subjective. I often wonder if I'm already doing my best, or is there more I can do.

What determines one's commitment? Our experiences with God? Our relationship with Him? Commitment should be, like salvation, involve an active wilful decision. No one can cause us to be more committed, nor can anyone cause our commitment to waver easily once we've made the decision. Scary enough, God loves us so much He gave us freewill. We're allowed to choose. WOW. the word is scary. It lies in our decisions now and it's up to us how we want to live this life that we have on earth, but to be prepared to face all the eternal consequences that come with every choice we make.

James likes to tell me that I've changed. Perhaps. I'm not the same steph I was 5 years ago. We all gotta grow from glory to glory. I hope I've changed for the better. But in anyway, as my age matures, my thoughts complexes. I often wonder why I was wired this way as well. Funny, when I have no problems with myself at this current situation, I'm seeing what is happening to the people around me, and trying to understand and get some revelations off their lives. I think I'm seeking for trouble .

Help me, each day, each moment.

Elison.

love!<3

I bought my second pair of Keds today! This is the best recommendation I can make, because Keds is really REALLY good. I mean, having bought so many pairs of flats and have experience of them dying on me, Keds has never failed me. I owned my pair of Keds for almost a year now, and it's still as good as new! So, nothing can change my mind on it. I STRONGLY recommend it to girls who are willing to invest and not waste their money buying cheapskate shoes that don't last. I bought mine today because it's much cheaper since world of sports is having discounts. It was supposed to cost $59.90, but with discount, it's only $39.30, surely a worth buy! kekek, I sound like some salesgirl man...

Anyways, I've changed my blog song to Love's Way. It has been replaying in my head for many days already and I've been singing it for days. The lyrics are really interesting.

I know an amazing experiment
If you put a few drops of soap into a cup
The divided oil and water
That had their back to each other, mixes as one
This is so much like us
We fight like we will never see each other again
And then become mixed in the soap called love
Suddenly all the animosity disappears

We fight a hundred times, and our hearts breaks a hundred times
But like tangled pieces of string, our love can’t be pulled apart
We fix our faults, learn each other’s hearts
I know that one day, only our happiness will be left

I’ll try to say the awkward words of love
(I love you, I love you)
Even on days where I’m tired,
I’ll hide my tired expression just for you
In my daily dairies
There is nothing but talks of you
We will show each other once in a while
It would be nice if we were happy

We fight a hundred times, and our hearts breaks a hundred times
But like tangled pieces of string, our love can’t be pulled apart
We fix our faults, learn each other’s hearts
I know that one day, only our happiness will be left

At first we couldn’t meet
But how is it so different now
Still you don’t know how much
I want to keep on meeting you
You keep me alive
So that I can feel you
Even though we are so different
Our love will stay the same
I don’t want a love that will evaporate away like soap bubbles
A love that will be felt without words,
That is the love I want
When you are with me,
You can’t ride in golden carriages even in your dreams
But while you are still with me
I can make you smile

Love’s way
Love’s way
You’re my true love

Though our hobbies are different,
And our thoughts are different,
Our habits have become similar
The way we talk becomes similar,
And even the times that we fall asleep, after we talk at night
Have become the same.

Beautiful? I think it is. Although it's not meaningful for me, but I still think the lyrics are pretty! Whenever it gets to the rap, I really bop my head up and down! haha.

Elison.