given away.

The mouth, or the tongue to be exact, is a very powerful tool.  As Man, we can try to package ourselves nicely and hide everything evil beneath to cover up our hearts, but the moment our mouth speaks, everything just crumbles and falls off. For out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. 

I feel sorry for you. Cause when you spoke, we witnessed your true character.

Elison.

잠꼬대 (Please, Don`t Go)

[온유] 어젯밤 꿈속에 네가 내게 다가와

속삭인 그 말이 내 얼굴 만지던 그 머릿결이

[종현] 꿈에서 깨보니 너무나도 선명한데

네가 있는 게 꿈이었단 걸 내 눈가에 고여진 눈물이 말해줬어

*[종현/w온유] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

[종현] 다시 눈감아 널 보러 가면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

[종현] 눈을 떠 보아도 네 모습만 선명한데

네가 있는게 꿈이었단 걸 내 눈물에 비춰진 슬픔이 말해줬어

*[온유/w종현] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한번 만 한번 만 날 다시 안아줘요

[온유] 다시 눈감아 널 보게 되면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

[종현] 애를 써 애를 써도 떼를 써 떼를 써 다시 돌아와

*[종현/w온유] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

[온유] 다시 눈감아 널 보러 가면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

Last night
You came to me in my dreams
Whispered those words..
The soft hair that brushed my face
Even after waking from this dream
Everything seems so vivid
The only evidence that you were but a dream
are the tears pooled in my eyes

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Just once more, just once more, hold me like this
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

Even after opening my eyes
Everything seems so vivid
The only evidence that you were but a dream
is the sadness reflecting from my tears

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Just once more, just once more, hold me like this
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

I’ll try and try again
Attempt the impossible again and again
Come back to me

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Please hold me again just once, just once
It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Please hold me again just once, just once
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

After I posted this, I went to Ruiliang's blog and I realised we have the SAME blog song. LOL. Shabang Shabang!~

Elison.

하나님 밖에 없는데

Okay. I've finally chosen the course to go to. NUS Bizad. Ahh, thinking about it just makes me wanna laugh. I really vividly remember saying that I'll never study in NJ and I'll never study business. But I guess God has proven it the other way around. Whatever it is, although I'm going to battle with Economics once again, I'm pretty much still excited for school. Yay, Nus Bizad. Here I come! I have so many goals set just for this. LOL.

와오! 어제 너의 메시지 받아요..
사실이, 난 너무너무 충격이에요.
왜냐하면 너를 처음 이런게 하다.
2년전 부터...
왜 지금까지 기다릴까요?
흐.
난 필요 없어.
나가!
남자는 사랑을 몰라.

To me, you no longer matter.
너 상관 없어.

Elison.

That post is so not done by me...=.=

Under my skin~

I'm so bored. Avid readers like Gracie, I'm so sorry for not updating for a week. Ah, i guess it requires some inspiration to write here. Hahah, I'm currently at Grace's house with James. Very bored... what should i do now? hmmm... should i bath? should i play with my hair? or should i adore myself in the mirror? any comment? of what should i do? so sorry i am obsesses about myself! oh my oh my, why the weather is so hot today? feel like not wearing anything at all... do you agree with me? Grace mum is cooking "Kong Ba Bun" for me to eat, cant wait for it! 

Hmmm ya remind me to take $$ from James for the guitar picks, i think it around $2... haha oh my, james is indecisive, so lazy... grace is so hilarious, as usual... she cant wait to watch the legend... it the korean drama that aired quite long ago... She wanna watch monster VS alien in 3D format, anybody wanna tag along? 

Felt abit tired now, after helping james to translate the korean word for his assignment... haha, i am seriously indulging in myself... i am so high because i listen to the song from the legend... heehee... i am eating the Bun now... Grace mum deliver the food to me liao... but i havent say grace yet... Lol... Grace is here, why do i need to say it? lame lah... agree with me?

we are watching the korean drama now, the guy was shouting "city hall" for no reason... Lol... oh the drama has no english substitles, too bad for james and grace... i can understand what they talking... i am evil... now grace is restarting the whole drama again... wasting time... i keep on saying setup but grace dont follow my instruction... hai... i am smart yeah? somehow i feel so "ke lian" now Grace said the girl is"chio" in the drama... hmmm i dont think so, i think i more chio... heehee, self praise = international disgrace... Grace again, but now i DIS grace... sorry grace...

Steph-

irony.

I was watching channel 8 drama earlier and a thought struck my head.

I think that people who commit suicide are actually very courageous people. Having walked out from depression before, I know how difficult it is to take one's own life. It requires a lot of courage. So actually people who kill themselves are very brave. But ironically, they are brave enough to kill themselves, but not brave enough to face up to life's challenges. How funny. =.=

Yay, stephie loves xuanie and oppa! :DDDD

Elison.

wonder

Currently listening: Reset-Super Junior

It's LEETEUK! XD

In life, there are just so many things that we don't understand. As humans, we try to understand everything possible. But God doesn't require us to do that all the time. It's funny isn't it?

Happy mother's day...

If in life, we could just press the reset button, things would be much easier ain't it so? When the exams are here, we reset it back to the holidays. If we said or done something that we shouldn't have, we reset it back to where things used to be.  Life would be simpler. Corrections anytime. But sadly, it doesn't work like that. We pay for our actions. We bear the consequences. 

I wish I have more time. I wish I can be more stretched. I probably cannot have enough time for everyone and myself...But still I wish to be more involved in everyone's lives. Use me O Lord. Stretch me and enlarge me I pray.

Elison.

너 올 때까지

I suppose this is the first F.T. Island song I've uploaded onto my blog. It's a very nice song...As usual, Hongki is emo enough for this. Amazingly, he sang this song when he was merely 17. Let me think what I was doing when I was 17. *scratches head*

Anyway, it's 12.33am but I'm not at all tired. All thanks to the mynah this morning. Let me go on to elaborate on this mynah (minor) incident. I was happy in lala land when I was awaken by the flapping of wings against my glass windows. For those people who have been into my room, you'd know that my entire section of the wall is covered with windows, so the flapping was really loud. I tried knocking on the window to chase the bird away, but the noise continued, and the bird even started chirping. It was like 7am. So I decided to move out of my bed and headed off to the living room sofa to attempt to catch some sleep. But the mynah probably wanted to play with me, flew to the living room window ( which is just next to my room's) and started chirping like nobody's business. I tried to shoo it away many times, but it just went on and on! I closed the window cause I was afraid it might fly into my house, BUT I COULD STILL HEAR THE BIRD! The incident did not occur for like 30mins, it went on till about 10 plus in the morning...Finally I managed to get back to sleep. After sooooo long. I hope the bird doesn't come again tomorrow morning. I need proper rest. ahhhhh, 鸟鸟... =.=

Ah, parents and kids. I think God has created us with this really strange relationship. We all want the best for the people we love. Our parents want the best for us, and likewise as children, we want to give the best that we can to them. At this age, I guess my "best" is so limited. Financially I am not independent. I can't give them all the gifts and money that they may need. With the approaching mother's day, I'm really wrecking my brains on what to get for my mother. Aye, 나 알아, study hard and earn big bucks right? We've all said these since we were like toddlers. The future just seems to far away. Money may not be the most important thing in life, but without money, we'll all be in trouble. Ah, messed out. My brain is malfunctioning at the moment. 죄송합니다. It's an aimless fight. I'll never be able to outgive them. The great love of our parents. Just like daddy God, we can never outgive him. 

Elison.

홍기야...

Ahhh, 홍기 is such a pretty boy, 너무 에쁘다..I feel happy just looking at his pretty pictures. Anyway, I'm sorry that I haven't blogged for the entire week. As most of you would have known, I was caught up with the SAT. Now that it's over already, I'm so glad. I felt that I had been neglecting my Korean because of the exams. I didn't have the time to revise and memorise my Korean words. Yay, finally today, 시간이 있어요, 그래서, 집에서 공부해요. ㅋㅋㅋ...나 알아, 난 아주 열심히 오전.

Yesterday, it was really funny how we met the 2 Korean girls on the train home. Ahh, I suppose taking the train to tanah merah each week would give us ample chances to meet koreans. But I need to pluck up my courage to so randomly talk to them. I felt so embarrassed yesterday! Ahh, I wished my Korean was better, like at Level 4 or something, then I probably would be able to converse more effectively with them. But it's okay! I'll study hard now. Lest I regret in the future...

Mam mam mam. I'm so bored. Ah, someone, save me! :(

Elison.