those were the days...

<3 prelims. HAHA.

I was flipping through The New Paper when I came across the report on how self mutilation among youths is on the rise. The report included the testimony of this girl who would cut herself due to the stress of school, family and relationship. It reminded me of how I used to be like her. In depression, I would slit my wrist and cut myself on my arm, whenever I feel sad or lonely. I remember how I'd be crying while quickly and swiftly making multiple cuts on my arm. It'd bleed and hurt, but the pain is sufficient to temporary numb what I feel inside. And when the pain of the wound wears off and that of the heart overwhelms, the process begins all over again. At that point of time, when I'm fully conscious, I would wonder why I even do it, and the swollen cuts look utterly unsightly.

What a solution. Thank God for Him who saved me from all these unnecessary pain of slitting and crying. Thinking about the past, I feel foolish, for even taking that route. Physical pain can only numb the emotional pain, but not take it away. And more often than not, it makes things worse than before. It's great to be out of depression, I don't know who I'd be if I hadn't met God. WOW. Timing.

To whoever who may want to embark on self mutilation as a solution: it is stupid, don't begin. To solve a problem, you need to get to the root of it.

5 days without school! More mugging. A month to the big day. Gonna meet blossom tml! LOVES!

elison.

the way you are

I went out for dinner with lovely last night, we shopped around and updated each other about our lives and ministry. We had dinner at this very very KAWAII restaurant at Far East called kitchen mogu mogu. I bet many of us have walked by this restaurant but have never been there. Actually the food prices are rather reasonable and their food is 10 times better than yoshinoya and kobayashi. At least the chawamushi doesn't stink like that from sakae, and the miso soup is not made from instant powder. A plus for that?

Rahhh, I'm early today. we just love thursdays and fridays. time really FLIES.

LOVELY <3

elison.

HELP

*GASPING FOR OXYGEN!*

I see myself as someone who is rather eloquent, often being able to talk my way through. But sometimes, my face just gives me away. I wish I'm a Flavor Savr Tomato, so I won't "ripen" or blush so readily in situations. Laughing makes me blush, being shy makes me laugh. I wish my emotions aren't so openly written on my face, so that it doesn't place me in a more embarrassing position.

It's been 4 years since I last saw you. I thought I'd never meet you again, at least not anytime soon, considering that for the past 1 and 3/4 years of traveling on 67 hadn't allowed me to do so. But today...

Elison.

sleepyhead

Froggy pouch! Just bought it today, using it to store my makeup stuff. Cute eh? It cost me a friggin' 19 bucks. *burns* It will ALWAYS remind me of Jieying. HAHA

I'm so tired. I want to go to bed already, My eyelids can barely open. RAWR, all thanks to school and late nights from studying.

NUS FACULTY OF LAW/ YONG LOO LIN SCHOOL OF MEDICINE. Just you wait!

CAMBRIDGE! give me my As! I demand.

No looking back, only forward, and unto God. CHIONG LAH!

NJC chemistry department was totally out of their minds making us come to school for MCQ test at 720 in the morning when it's THURSDAY. Waking up early can kill. We ought to find some statistics or research to substantiate that. So as to proof that our point isn't the least fallacious.

Sijia, Jie and I went out today on a present hunt. My wallet has this rather BIG hole now, cause I've burned my POSB card. Haha, MONDAY = MONey + DAY. Haha, I was amusing myself, Jie and Sijia the whole of today. Tiredness runs adrenaline in me. YAWN! Oh yea, and jieying's weird idea of buying pearls from the Bubble Tea Stall uncle but not the drink made Sijia, Jas and I laugh like CRAZY. Haha, she's weird, but i love her nonetheless.

MORE MUGGING AHEAD. I think you can read from this post that I'm in a GREAT mood and am very excited. HAHA, i don't know why either. :) It must be after the phonecall with Meitong. AHHH, and Charles and Keith is having SALES. I NEED heels, okay not exactly, given my height. RAWR, but still...Shoes and bags are things that girls will never say "enough".

I'm so happy, meeting joash for lunch tml, and lovely for breakfast on sat. :)

I'm getting into the korean craze. DBSK rocks and Shinhwa rules.

OH YES, and I think Huang Qiming from the 7pm show on Channel 8 is handsome. LOL, he's the one acting as Apple Hong's husband, Zhuang Jiawei.

RANDOM.

annyong- hi kye seyo
elison.

<3

신화

I met oppa and eeden at city hall today. Oppa called when I was at school, like out of the blue, and so I dragged him and eeden to go with me to funan to get the silicon cover for my labby. :) It was fun hanging out with them, though we did nothing much but walked around aimlessly while oppa kept me and eeden highly entertained as usual. HAHA, was conversing with oppa with the little korean that I know, but was fun. Rah, I'm new to this.

I've got the song stuck in my head.

It's time to be a chiongster, 7 weeks till it begins, 10 till it ends. PERSEVERE my friends.

I was just thinking about a lot of random stuffs. Maybe what oppa says is right, sometimes when things get too complicated, it's time to go back to simplicity. Sometimes I do wonder why He would create us with such intellect. An it's contradictory when intellect is supposed to help us, yet it often causes us more problems than over. But nonetheless, I prefer intellect/wisdom to beauty. Beauty is never everlasting, wisdom is.

As humans, we often stumble, make the wrong decisions, and tend to do things to satisfy our fleshly desires and forget that life is an exchange. Sometimes, we go a big round and end up back at square one because we do not understand or choose to surrender the are of weakness in our lives. Some as a result sacrifice their walk with God. We should never let this happen, but it often does. Pathetic? perhaps.

A daughter is more than a servant. Change me, O Lord.

annyong- hi kye seyo
elison.

heehee

Whee, this is a cheeky photo. LOL, no worries, i'm NOT poking my nostrils, was just trying to figure the glam-est way to giggle without snapping my rubberband. HAHA.

Hmm, service was stupendous. While Pastor preached about sonship and being faithful in our finances, I really felt very challenged by the Holy Spirit to be a daughter of Christ, and not just a servant. Sometimes it is so easy to serve even if we bear the wrong attitude, but a son/daughter serves beyond responsibilities and bears the visions of the leader. We musn't be building our own kingdom, it is all about God, bearing the DNA of the church and of the leadership. Not our will, but His be done.

As I thought about the City Harvest DNA, the characteristics that came to my mind were:
1. Loves God wholeheartedly and people fervently.
2. Spiritual excellence
3. Fashionable
4. Charismatic
5. Servanthood
6. Willingness to be discipled
7. Availability
8. Ministry
9. Love for Praise and Worship
10. Cell Groups
11. Waiting on the presence of God.
12. Cultural Mandate.
13. Creative
14. Bold

Well, just some which i can think of at hand. I'm so glad to be a City Harvester, and beyond that, a CHILD of God.

NOTHING is worth more than God and what He can give. Never, never shortchange yourself.

elison.

a day out with the girls

Whee, prelims are over, and there's time for a little relaxation! Haha, was supposed to meet lovely. But I went out with the girls to sentosa. Haha, although we didn't do much, the company was good. Playing vollleyball, Pepsi Cola 123, and touch rugby. Jie and I were having fun building sandcastles as well. Haha, the sad thing is although I put a lot of suntan lotion, I DIDN'T get any darker! urgh. unlike sijia, who looked chao da. LOL.

Meeting yt tml to go shopping.

Sometimes I know I'm just a lifebuoy, but i want to be a good friend even if you guys are not.

elison.

Noisy kids

Currently mugging my day away at teck whye macdonalds, only to realise that the peacefulness of the fast food restaurant is destroyed by youths ranting at the top of their voices.

The thing is, i'm not discriminating against neighbourhood school students, but at least for this bunch of people that have been here today, have shown that they have failed the years of education. Even if mainstream education hasn't taught us not to eat and talk at the same time, at least we ought to know how to carry ourselves in public, and not act rowdy, and talk at the top of our voices as if it's our own home. I know the direct counter argument, that macdonalds is not library, you can't expect it to be quiet. Yes, this i definitely understand, but they are so loud that even blasting my ipod cannot cancel out the noise ard me. Think about the number of decibels they must contribute.

URGH...noise is DISRUPTIVE.

elison.

all things new

Whee, I'm blogging off my new Acer Aspire One. Don't ask me why I got this labtop instead of the Asus one which i had initially wanted. But anyway, this baby is a true beauty. Small, compact, light, but has almost all that I need to get by, and the best thing is really being able to be carried about with much ease.

Anyway, today's biology paper was pretty okay. I think I really like biology applications syllabus. Gonna chiong for chemistry, I don't like organic siol. urgh..

2 more to go!

elison.

friend

what is a "friend"?

Is it true that when you're a friend to others, they'll be friends to you? How come I don't seem to sense it?

Oh God, reaffirm me.
Who but you?

and of course lovely, you're impossible to find.

elison.

then some you don't want.

ever felt you were lost for words? like this picture, all the alphabets are laid out, jumbled up, but you have no idea how to arrange them.

elison.