Its pouring crazily outside and there's just gingy and me in the house. I haven't updated this blog very often even though I thought I would while I was overseas, guess there wasn't much need for an outlet to express my emotions especially when I could always turn around and talk to shir baby if there was anything. But now that shir baby has gone back home, I guess I might update this space more than usual.
Actually was kinda sad when shir left. I thank God for this great roomie and companion. The last 4.5 months in Korea had been made much easier because she was with me. Sometimes we clash, but we both learn how to handle conflicts better through this exchange. Maybe I'm just afraid to see how friendships might eventually change by the time we hit back to NUS. Maybe I haven't learned independence enough. Afterall shir was almost with me all the time. I didn't even needed to listen to my ipod the past 4.5 months. Now that she's gone back home, its time for me to take care of myself and grow up! I know many people are worried about me now, like mum, like shir, and her parents. But I guess I will be fine yea. Since my life in Sg was pretty much the same. This month, I will learn not to hate eating out alone, that should be the biggest issue. HAHA.
The first two days when shirlyn was gone, it was quite hard to handle. I kinda got used to always having someone else in my room. I got used to having a companion with me almost everywhere I went, including nightwalks and runs. I got used to lying in our beds and chatting till we are so tired we fall asleep. The first night I almost couldn't sleep. Baby's calls didn't help to make me feel better. i just laid in bed and wept till I dozed off. Day 2 morning, I woke up feeling so drained and depressed. At that point, I really felt like going back home, to where my family and my friends are. I'm so glad 오빠 came over and it really helped a lot. I actually went out for dinner myself! He made me realised that I can have control over my own emotions. So I went out for a 3h plus night walk myself, and enjoyed the solitude I never really had for the past few months. Day 3? I woke up feeling great, except for the part about muscle aches. HEHE
So I guess I'm doing pretty well up to now. School will start tomorrow again and I will meet new people and make new friends. I can cause I talk too much. HAHAHA.
The real adventure only begins NOW.
Stephie.
I love the fried rice thingy that comes at the end of each meal. SLURPS. I'm gonna miss it a lot when I go back to Sg. :(
