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Today is exactly 14 days before I leave Singapore. The excitement to go over to Korea seems to be slowly dying away and my reluctance to leave is slowly taking over. Talking to my besties about the things we can't do when I'm not around isn't helping me to soothe away these emotions. There are time I feel bad, leaving everything and everyone I love behind. It makes me feel selfish, as if I'm only concerned about myself and not about the people around me.
But then again, sometimes being accommodating to others means sacrificing something yourself. And I can't accommodate on this one thing. I need to go to Korea. To pursue that excellence in my craft, to be so fluent and natural in my Korean, to experience an independence lifestyle, to go out and see the world. I've held this so close to my heart. At the age of 21, I've never really stood up for much things in my life, except my salvation and my baptism. Going on exchange is the third thing I suppose. I've never been overseas (except malaysia that is literally over-the-sea) and I need that global perspective for my own degree. I don't want to go through university like a typical NUS student, just study for 4 years and graduate. I want to be different. I want to be marketable.
Wait for me till I return. I believe God has great things in store for me when i'm there, and even greater things in store when I come back. I can only trust in the Lord as I physically leave my home church and family. Trust.
I'll leave my goodbye messages till a later date. But for now.
안녕.
phie.
