bloob bloob blue~

하늘 색! Yay, recently my things are turning blue. It all started with my DS lite. ㅋㅋㅋ...예뻐요? I'm so bored staying at home the whole day! ><

LALALA~ 프리마던나!~아, 홍기야...

사랑해,

Elison.

F.T 아일랜드 쇼케이스

F.T 아일랜드 쇼케이스 @ St James Power Station, Dragonfly.

One word to describe the showcase- Phenomenal. The boys, they looked exactly how I've seen them in the photos and videos. They have not been excessively photoshopped. They just look as if they walked out of the poster. Amazing. 진자 잘 생긴 남자들이.

I think that the venue for the showcase really sucked. It was definitely not a place to hold crazy fangirls and rockprinces. But nonetheless, the boys made it work on stage. Hongki's voice is just amazing! I mean, how could a 19 year old sing with such emotions? How can he be so much more accomplished than I am at my age?Pretty boy. I'll always remember how he sang live on stage, esp for ft vs pri. Amazing. And Jonghoon, he's soo handsome. His nose! Ahh, so nice. :)

I think the 3 of us weren't crazy fangirls who stalked them all over the place. I think it's so stressful to go everywhere and end up having to face crazy girls staring at them all the time! Why did some people have to go and piss them while they were trying to enjoy their day? This is so stupid. Hongki is too cute. I guess he badly wanted to go shopping since it's the Great Singapore Sale but that wasn't in the organisers' itinerary for them. And to the idiot who stuck the sticker on his neck! You just made Hongki noticed you, for the wrong reason. =.= congrats.

I just hope they won't be too pissed to return to Singapore. I hope like what they mentioned during the fanmeet, they'd be back at the end of the year...><

The experience to watch the boys is still really memorable! I just fulfilled a lifetime dream of watching the boys live. <3><

Elison.

미쳐 미쳐 미쳐 미쳐 미쳐!

I'm doing the same expression as Key right now! I'm wrecking my head trying to think of what to do for F.T's present and what to write for F.T's letter! I'm also wondering if i should ask Hongki to help me pass a letter to Key and Onew. 아이구...미쳐 미쳐미쳐요!

I met up with ruiliang today to do some shopping at Queensway. I spent like 120 bucks. LOL. I really love the stuffs I bought today, especially my new heels! :D Amazing... I'm missing everyone from dm and makeup! Aye, I wish there are rehearsals again...then we can laugh and talk crap, go for late night supper and chit chat...Hahah, loves.

I had a good talk with Barry earlier. Sometimes I guess I'm too urgent about things. Talking to him helped set somethings into place. And I feel so encouraged just merely smsing my leader! :) Many things are soon going to be happening. I need to gear up spiritually stronger this year-more prayers, more fasting, more serving, greater commitment. I'm excited of the things to come. I've made some decisions. 21 it shall be. I'll do it again. Your Kingdom come, Your will be done. Draw me closer to you...

[edit]경수오빠 만세! 오빠가 진자 친절한 사람이에요...Lalala, he promised to help me with the letter and revise my korean. Yay, 오빠 만세! :D

Elison.

리허설

I am so tired....just 3 more days. Keep me alive God...제발요...

Elison.

Iqueue.

I was facebooking today when the screen showed this. LOL. if you are wondering who those people are, from left to right: ruiliang, grace, vanessa, collin, me.

Haha, see you must know that this facebook ad is totally random. To have my cell group members there is really by chance. And the IQ levels are so adorably allocated. Grace, by chance, might be considered a genius. And Collin might be dumb. And me!? I might be either ridiculously smart they don't know what to call me, or so stupid that they are speechless! LOL, this is sure something funny! 재미 있다!

Elison.

피곤해...

This week has been packed and tiring. Physically, it's tolling having to wake up so early to pray. I guess I really felt it crucifying my flesh. But God has been really faithful. No matter how tired I was, during the prayer meeting He's so faithful to come and refresh me, especially on days that I can't go home to sleep. However tired, it's a great experience for me. Something is just different about this week's prayer meeting from the rest. I did enjoy myself really. Fellowshipping with Jon and Chenyang and Gracie. Hahah, interesting times. Like back to old days?

I've decided to leave it as it is. Not what I do. It cannot be maintained by me alone. That was my ultimatum.

I think there isn't a place like ministry anywhere. A place to be edified, to have another family, to be filled and encouraged. The purpose of drama ministry is not about showing off our talents to others, it's not just about serving God with the talents He has placed into us, but about the anointing and presence of God that we will bring down that will touch thousands-members and new friends. I guess that's the really fulfilling part of DM eh? The long hours we spend together, chatting rehearsing, laughing..haha, I mean in the essence I may not be close to everyone, especially the veterans, it's this trust that I know they are people that I can rely on. Fathers' day is going to be just great. I know it will. :)

Dang, shall end it here. I've gotta go to prepare to go to church. It's going to be great tonight! :)

Elison.

put me to sleep

At this hour, I know I should be in bed already. But I can't get to sleep with those thoughts on my mind. I tossed around in bed for a while and finally decided to get up and switch on my macbook again to blog. 

I guess it's hard. But that's just my primary love language. When it's not met, no matter what you do, it doesn't make me feel that you love or care for me.

What are friends? What is friendship? Everything seems blurred. Badly defined? You are best friends with someone because you chose to be close to that person. Sad to say, sometimes, such love is not mutual, and is left unreciprocated. It's just foolish thinking on my part. It's just me and my wishful thinking to perceive that we have a strong friendship. I had to take so long to see things clearly. I feel like i'm used and abused. I'm willing to meet your needs. But hey, I have my own too.

If we are best friends, why don't we meet?

If we are best friends, why do you only know what I think or feel through my blog?

If we are best friends, why is it that my latest calls or messages have nothing to do with you?

Take this, it's reality. we aren't.

I don't know about your lives, cause maybe to you I'm not that important. You don't know about mine either, cause I'm tired of taking the initiative to type smses.

I hate it when my life encircles around this. It's always in a circle. Some point later I'll be back to this again. God, since you can give me salvation, please, give me strong friendships that are built to last. I'm sick and tired of getting back to this issue again.

Like what meitong said, friendships in lives have phases. Maybe I should just be taking it as it comes. What's there to be upset about? You guys just stayed slightly longer than others. That's something maybe I should be grateful for. Because I don't know how to love.

So for now, 잘 가.

Elison.