Iqueue.

I was facebooking today when the screen showed this. LOL. if you are wondering who those people are, from left to right: ruiliang, grace, vanessa, collin, me.

Haha, see you must know that this facebook ad is totally random. To have my cell group members there is really by chance. And the IQ levels are so adorably allocated. Grace, by chance, might be considered a genius. And Collin might be dumb. And me!? I might be either ridiculously smart they don't know what to call me, or so stupid that they are speechless! LOL, this is sure something funny! 재미 있다!

Elison.

피곤해...

This week has been packed and tiring. Physically, it's tolling having to wake up so early to pray. I guess I really felt it crucifying my flesh. But God has been really faithful. No matter how tired I was, during the prayer meeting He's so faithful to come and refresh me, especially on days that I can't go home to sleep. However tired, it's a great experience for me. Something is just different about this week's prayer meeting from the rest. I did enjoy myself really. Fellowshipping with Jon and Chenyang and Gracie. Hahah, interesting times. Like back to old days?

I've decided to leave it as it is. Not what I do. It cannot be maintained by me alone. That was my ultimatum.

I think there isn't a place like ministry anywhere. A place to be edified, to have another family, to be filled and encouraged. The purpose of drama ministry is not about showing off our talents to others, it's not just about serving God with the talents He has placed into us, but about the anointing and presence of God that we will bring down that will touch thousands-members and new friends. I guess that's the really fulfilling part of DM eh? The long hours we spend together, chatting rehearsing, laughing..haha, I mean in the essence I may not be close to everyone, especially the veterans, it's this trust that I know they are people that I can rely on. Fathers' day is going to be just great. I know it will. :)

Dang, shall end it here. I've gotta go to prepare to go to church. It's going to be great tonight! :)

Elison.

put me to sleep

At this hour, I know I should be in bed already. But I can't get to sleep with those thoughts on my mind. I tossed around in bed for a while and finally decided to get up and switch on my macbook again to blog. 

I guess it's hard. But that's just my primary love language. When it's not met, no matter what you do, it doesn't make me feel that you love or care for me.

What are friends? What is friendship? Everything seems blurred. Badly defined? You are best friends with someone because you chose to be close to that person. Sad to say, sometimes, such love is not mutual, and is left unreciprocated. It's just foolish thinking on my part. It's just me and my wishful thinking to perceive that we have a strong friendship. I had to take so long to see things clearly. I feel like i'm used and abused. I'm willing to meet your needs. But hey, I have my own too.

If we are best friends, why don't we meet?

If we are best friends, why do you only know what I think or feel through my blog?

If we are best friends, why is it that my latest calls or messages have nothing to do with you?

Take this, it's reality. we aren't.

I don't know about your lives, cause maybe to you I'm not that important. You don't know about mine either, cause I'm tired of taking the initiative to type smses.

I hate it when my life encircles around this. It's always in a circle. Some point later I'll be back to this again. God, since you can give me salvation, please, give me strong friendships that are built to last. I'm sick and tired of getting back to this issue again.

Like what meitong said, friendships in lives have phases. Maybe I should just be taking it as it comes. What's there to be upset about? You guys just stayed slightly longer than others. That's something maybe I should be grateful for. Because I don't know how to love.

So for now, 잘 가.

Elison.

열심히해주세요!

I just got home from school. Actually had my reservations about going for the LPP talk since I can't apply for the LPP, but nonetheless I went. Wow, it was amazing, I have to say I don't regret going. Cause afterall I met a few people who were like me, can't take part in the LPP, but still going to sit for the CLS placement test and bid for higher level Korean modules. It was fun taking the bus home with Pamela, cause though we just met, I think the love for Korea connected us pretty well. Ah, just hope she'll be my future classmate. Okay, so I have slightly more than a month to start mugging now for my Korean test. I hope I do well and don't get placed in level 1. LOL. 

난 집에 금왔어요. 오늘 대학교에 강의 들르러 갔어요. 근대 강의를 재미 있었어요. 많이 한국어 학생을 마났어요. 7월15일 CLS 시험이 있어요. 이제 부터 나는 열심히 공부해요!아, 파이팅!~

아, 토요일에 콜린 씨 한국친구 켱수 씨 교희에 올 거요.나는 너무 너무 흥분예요. 기다려요!

Oh goodness, the korean dictionaries are so cool. Pamela makes me so want to own one. Check them out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQbUSe1jjUw

http://www.loopygadgets.com/sharp-rd-pm10-e-dictionary-and-media-player/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBkKjkItOGE

Elison.

Bad night.

심장이 떨리는 Rush
이 순간 모두다 Hush
음악과 하나 같이
Let me talk to U~

I didn't sleep well. I had 2 nightmares in a row. I'm so drained. :( Take it away. The nightmares felt so real. Urgh...I still have to go to school later for the LPP talk. 

It feels so good to be back serving God with everyone again. Thanks for giving back my sanity! I love DM. <3

Elison.

given away.

The mouth, or the tongue to be exact, is a very powerful tool.  As Man, we can try to package ourselves nicely and hide everything evil beneath to cover up our hearts, but the moment our mouth speaks, everything just crumbles and falls off. For out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. 

I feel sorry for you. Cause when you spoke, we witnessed your true character.

Elison.

잠꼬대 (Please, Don`t Go)

[온유] 어젯밤 꿈속에 네가 내게 다가와

속삭인 그 말이 내 얼굴 만지던 그 머릿결이

[종현] 꿈에서 깨보니 너무나도 선명한데

네가 있는 게 꿈이었단 걸 내 눈가에 고여진 눈물이 말해줬어

*[종현/w온유] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

[종현] 다시 눈감아 널 보러 가면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

[종현] 눈을 떠 보아도 네 모습만 선명한데

네가 있는게 꿈이었단 걸 내 눈물에 비춰진 슬픔이 말해줬어

*[온유/w종현] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한번 만 한번 만 날 다시 안아줘요

[온유] 다시 눈감아 널 보게 되면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

[종현] 애를 써 애를 써도 떼를 써 떼를 써 다시 돌아와

*[종현/w온유] 안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

[온유] 다시 눈감아 널 보러 가면 그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

Last night
You came to me in my dreams
Whispered those words..
The soft hair that brushed my face
Even after waking from this dream
Everything seems so vivid
The only evidence that you were but a dream
are the tears pooled in my eyes

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Just once more, just once more, hold me like this
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

Even after opening my eyes
Everything seems so vivid
The only evidence that you were but a dream
is the sadness reflecting from my tears

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Just once more, just once more, hold me like this
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

I’ll try and try again
Attempt the impossible again and again
Come back to me

It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Please hold me again just once, just once
It can’t be, It can’t be,
Please don’t leave like this
Please hold me again just once, just once
If I close my eyes to go see you again
Hold the one who has stopped right here

After I posted this, I went to Ruiliang's blog and I realised we have the SAME blog song. LOL. Shabang Shabang!~

Elison.