close to perfection

Today is a day close to perfection.

In school, though lessons were boring as usual, but I had a great talk with jie. She shared with me many things about church and God, and I felt grieved in my spirit, about how she was brought up in a way to reject the Holy Spirit. How I wished she could know God the way I knew Him to be, I know it's not easy for her, having to stand up against her parents and elders because of what she believed in, and being brought up knowing a tinted version of the Bible and God. Thank God that i could minister to her because all the answers to the questions she had were in GOHS. It's not just about having head knowledge, but it's really applying the Word of God into lives that make a difference. It is absolutely important to get equipped with the Word of God so you can be more effective for God.

Anyway, after economics lecture today, I took the same bus home with nicko. Whee, he says that i look like i lost more than 6kg already. Whaha, thanks to the resounding voice of John in my head that reminds me not to eat so much and gain back the 6kg that I painstakingly lost. That hindered me from eating too much and abstain from fattening food. So we were talking about church and all then he told me that he realised that everytime he talks to me, he feels that his faith rises to a new level. And I felt happy, not because it's about ME, but it's more like I felt the Holy Spirit using me to minister to others. I was telling kexin that I recently have this urge to minister to people, to teach and help them to grow more in the Lord. If i could make a difference in their lives, I choose to do so. She told me I've grown, and I really think that those 21 days have not been to waste, but it caused me to feel more empowered to serve.

Not by power, not by might, but by My Spirit...

Stephiephoe.

men.

I've decided I musn't allow my wrath to get the better of me. But sometimes, you just can't help but feel so provoked you know.

Yesterday Pastor taught us about men and their purpose. And he mentioned that after the fall of adam. all these purposes became corrupted.

I kinda feel it's so true, men are absolutely poor in communication. They don't understand things, they don't clarify, they don't think before they say, they don't apologise. And most of the time, they just think that they are right. Even if they aren't, their ego gets the better of them. This is what i feel at least, generically speaking, not applicable to ALL men, just so to be fair to the minority.

Sometimes i just find it amusing how some people can blame everything and everyone else for the things in their lives and not evaluate themselves. WOW. It's amazing what love can do and selfishness can destroy. In God there is no I. There is only 1 way, the Jesus' way.

Enough of my sarcasm, I have a lot of thoughts flying through my head. There are many things that I want to do, and I feel prompted to do. I just pray that I'll be faithful to follow through, and not gradually over time, forget about everything that I had started on. Help me O Lord.

Stephiephoe.

elison is nice, from the word Elijah, which means Jehovah is God.
eliora is nice too, it means God is light.

wah, so hard to decide. the more names i find, the harder it becomes.

Stephiephoe.

tagged.

LOL, i realised rita tagged me to do this. I thought I'd be nice to do it! (:

1.who are you chatting with now?
van
2.what do you want the most now?
haha, eat dinner.
3.what i did at 6pm?
it's not 6pm yet. But i'm watching tv!
4.Do you hate your friends sometimes?
haha.
5.when do you wish to die?
not so soon. only until I've finished running the race
6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
absolutely.
7.What impossible things you would wish to do?
with God all things are possible.
8.What is your greatest phobia?
all fears are cast out in Jesus' name!
9.Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
gee, i don't know.
10.What if your crush asked you out?
who cares.
11.When is the last time you fell in love?
everyday! i'm falling in love with God each day. (:
12.What feeling you hate most?
LOL, for people to NOT reply sms or pick up calls.
13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
not exactly. i guess some things are taken for granted for. oops.
14.What are you looking forward to in this coming weeks?
baptism! and for pastor mike connell to come. of course for cgm tml!
15.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
no one is always there. there's only God.
16.List words that describe you.
deep
17.Who do you love most?beside God and family.
haha, my boyboy, family, and close friends.
18.When do you plan to settle down?
when i'm 28 or so.
19.What is your greatest secret?
gee, i don't know.
20.Tagged people.
anyone who wants to do this, LOL.

Was in school today when my friends were helping me think of a baptism name. I was high after lunch, so was coming up with really stupid names. like erm stephanie escar goh (escargots), stephanie sandie goh (san diego), stephanie ahgo goh (agogo), stephanie man goh (mango), stephanie bing goh (bingo), etc. LOL, i liked justina and elison! haha, I want to get baptised! (:

okie dokes, gotta go and do my transition elements tutorial already. bleahh, mug mug mug, shining for God!

Stephiephoe.

"i heart"

whee!~ this is nick's attempt to be part of the "i heart" revolution. cool huh? I love this ministry so much.

but anyway, today i was standing at dhoby ghaut mrt and staring at the missing persons advertisement.I suddenly saw in my spirit, that in heaven, God also has this super huge wall full of posters of the people that He had created. It contained all the information about every single one of us in great details. On some posters, there were stickers that says "FOUND" in bold, these are those who have a personal relationship with God. On these posters, there were details of their encounters with Him. Some have no stickers on them at all, they are the lost. There were also others with the remnants of the "FOUND" sticker after it was torn off, and there was an additional line written there "last seen at (place) at (time)". The point here being, if you are lost, God wants to meet you, if you were once His child, all the more He wants you to come home to Him! What a heavy responsibility we have to bring these people into the house of God. How sad God must be to tear off the sticker and write down when was the last time He met you. God is amazing ain't He? (:

My tooth is hurting like crazy. XC braces braces, i want nice teeth SOON. FAST.

Stephiephoe.

pms!

i hate it when people don't reply sms, i hate it when people promise to call and they don't, i hate it when i want to get something but yet ending up i can't get it.

PMS-ing.

Stephie.

sigh

I'm in a i-don't-know-what-i-am-feeling-and-why kind of mood.
Lord, guard my heart i pray.
sigh.
a hug would be great.

Stephie.