jeremy's birthday

For some reasons, I'm not in the best of moods now.

Emo?

Maybe.

It's really weird cause I don't even know why. Many things went wrong today.

1. I woke up at 1050am, feeling more tired than I have ever felt despite turning in rather early (at least not one of the latest times that I sleep) last night. The muscle aches were bad enough to almost kill me.

2. I had to bathe my dog, which means I will be late if I was going to meet the girls. And I don't quite like being late.

3. The girls were even later than I was. So it ended up that I had to wait for them.

4. We walked around the entire far east, and there was nothing reasonably priced and drop dead gorgeous. I ended up only buying 2 satin belts for $10.

5. I saw a few dresses that I really liked, but there were either too pricey, or were of the wrong colour/material.

6. The rain was SUPER heavy, and my shoes were soaked running around clarke quay. The feeling was really icky.

7. The news of auggie changing church came to me, filled me with shock and lots of question marks.

8. I dislike hearing people asking me about school, cause school is starting soon, and exams will soon follow. And my homework is barely half done.

9. Bad migraine again. I promise to sleep early and bathe early. :(

Yea, basically that should be it. On the bright side, mummy blessed me with 100 bucks to go shopping today, and yes, you didn't have to remind me that I didn't buy anything.

I must get a hold of my stupid and wild emotions.

Stephie.

wedding.

I haven't updated for quite some time, so I thought I'd take some photos and write a little about the wedding.

The bride and the groom

My boyfriend? Haha, no, my brother and me!

This is not my boyfriend either, it's my cousin kenny.

Jojo bee!


This heart shape candle thingy that Carol lit up. It's pretty cool, she just lit one candle and the interconnected wick lit up the entire heart.

Happily married!

My bro, carol and ameline.

Eddie and his gf with the newly weds.

That's me!...with the gorgeous bride. :)

Haha, all in all, the wedding was rather fun! Carol looked exceptionally gorgeous yesterday, and it made me feel like I want to get married too! Haha, still long la, but you can't help getting excited about it right, right? I mean like girls do think about their weddings right, right?I was thinking if I want to get a wedding planner for help, where I want to hold my wedding dinner, what kind of gowns I want to wear, my matrimony... ... Hahah, okie, I'm just trying to cover up my excitement about getting married 10 years later.

So, school is starting soon! *pouts* A levels will inch it's way to me very soon! URGH.... homework, tests, stress. Chill now!

Stephie.

what is love?

Love.
It is a word that cost us much.
What does it mean to love?

The bible mentions the word love 494 times, so as followers we ought to know what love really means right?
Corinthians 13:13 says "And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love."

Regardless of age, gender and all other properties, if you realised, we have always been searching for love. Love from our parents, love from our friends, and love, from those of whom we love. With the little we know about love, we want to give our love to others, and hopefully receive love back. But more often than not, the love is not reciprocated, and we die on the inside, as we run dry of the love that we originally had. Perhaps, that is why sometimes we find it so hard to love someone who is different/has done something against us.

But God has called us to FIRST love Him, because He is the source of everlasting love. From Him, we receive the love of which we can then LOVE and give others. The sequence must be taken seriously or the consequences are dire.

So God has already know, that we are not sources of love, but agents of love. And hence, all the more, we need Him, lest we are made unworthy to love.

The lesson?

We cannot and should not be giving to others what we do not have.

Likewise, if we do not get love, we can't give. Love has to first overflow in our lives, before we have enough to give.

<3
Stephie.

a reason?

Why do people like to play on trust?
Can all that is said be trusted at all times?
Does it pay to be trusting?
Does it pay to believe?
Or
Does it pay to doubt in your heart?
Questions.

Stephie.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BRO! haha, this is my family photo!

I haven't been to update for ages. My apologies, for playing too much and writing too little. :) Nothing much to say, but I wanna show you my psp!


Stephie.

exploitation

I feel exploited.
It feels like I'm so used by everyone,
used by everyone to achieve their own selfish aims.
Is it a problem of being too nice?
It's not like I don't dare to speak up for myself.
But it's just that I don't want to be so selfish to always be thinking about myself and not care about others.
But then again, the world is just like this
You're a slave to others.
I need Jesus.

Stephie.

christmas rehearsal day 1

Today is the first day of Christmas rehearsals for Expo team. So anyway, it was rather late but really fun! Haha, adrian, bernard, willy and eugene are like uber funny! Haha, I really love this ministry a lot. And even though my role for Christmas isn't that significant, but I thank God for the chance and I will still take my role seriously! :)

Haha, rehearsals ended rather early today. Jeslyn was nice to me today, so was adrian. Hahah, Karen sent me and weiyan home! Hahah, okay, not exactly, she dropped me off at boon lay, while she sent weiyan to her house. Haha, it's okay, that was really nice of her already! If not I will probably reach home about 12.

Anyway, building fund is here again. Time to save up to build God's house! :)

Stephie.