많이 아파.

Hadn't been feeling very well lately. Must be that my mind has been too preoccupied. I came home from school today and rested, slept for like 4hours...but I woke up feeling worse than before. Took 2 paracetamols and couldn't go to bed thereafter. Yesterday I scalded my hand when I put it into the oven. Today hasn't been a good day either. I took the morning train and experienced how insanely rude and kiasu Singaporeans are. I fell down and scraped my knee against the drain when I alighted outside the YIH bus stop. I had diarrhoea and felt really groggy. Man... I took comfort that I met some very nice seniors at the matriculation fair. Left my contact details at so many booths I can barely remember. University life is so complicated with all the module bidding, and growing up to be an adult. I need a vision.

I almost forgot to check my test results today. Anyway, I passed. :) I will be able to know if I get the module after round 3A bidding. Hopefully I'll get it.

I had a really good quiet time today. The chinese worship song is really very anointed. :)

I watched today's music bank. Hongki's 애교 reminds me of him singing FT vs Pri. ^^ and Seunghyun sounds so much more confident today! Minnie was so cute singing along with Hongki though he doesn't have a mic. 2ne1 won. =.= by 7 points. But nonetheless, there's still inkigayo. SM hwaiting!

Elison.

panadol and alcohol?

Yea, I know this is not like me. But i want to get drunk and hopefully for a moment stop thinking about everything and all. If only it was this easy.

If this is what you need. I'm sorry.

Elison.

for paedos.

Here's Taemin for all pedophiliac noonas. Yes, he's ONLY 16. Haha.

Just checked my mail and I'm flailing cause I manage to get attached to a Korean SEP buddy! Yay! I haven't contacted her yet, so for now, I only know that she's from Yonsei University. And she's the only one from Yonsei! Sounds lonely. But I guess she must be really smart, since she comes from one of the S.K.Y. league in Korea. I'm excited to meet her! Now this has got me excited for school! :)

Ah, 2 more weeks before school starts and many things are already happening! I'm gonna be busy soon!~ ><>

I love lovely. We and our puppy talk. :) <3

Elison.

머리가 아파요...

I thought about this for many days now. I really miss you. I think it's so pathetic that I have to find out about you from someone else. I know many things happened, but I don't know anything about them at all. Do we have to end up this way? I want things to go back to how they were, but just impossible eh? 가슴이 아프다. 하지만 어떻하면 난 모르겠다.바보 멍청이.

Why do people not talk about things when it happens? Why do we seek other forms of expression to vent our frustrations? It only worsens. It only hurts. It only results in a greater crack in a relationship that will take more time to mend later. 정말 나이브...

난 생각보다 더 어렵다.
사람의 마음을 난 못 알겠다.

머리가 아파요...많이 아프다.

Elison.

cause you had a bad day.

The following conversation has been translated from Korean to English for the convenience of readers.

Teacher: How do you find Singapore's weather?

Me: Warm, very very warm!

Teacher: Do you hate it?

Me: Yes.

Teacher: Why?

Me: *stares at her and into space*

Apparently this was what happened during my Korean oral today. HAHA, interesting huh?

I'm super tired today, woke up early so that I could do a bit more of studying. Aye, so, how did the test go? I don't know. How will I do? I don't know. I hope I will pass my essays. Yea, I wish my Korean was better. =.= When I saw the teacher, I was so nervous! I totally forgot so many things. When I took 96 on the way to the mrt station, I calmed down and thought about it. I could have answered it so much better if I was calmer! :(

I made many mistakes today. It's very bad. I think I've been too drained. Like after the test, I just felt like not doing anything. I don't think I'm going to touch my guitar or Korean for the next few days... ><>

I'm having a backache, a buttache, a fingerache...everything also ache...I'm old. =.=

Currently doing some research in an attempt to diagnose my disease. I'm mottephobic or lepidopterophobic, since there is not exact term for the fear of butterflies. I can't imagine how someone can be photophobic or heliophobic except for like a zombie?! And a photic sneeze reflex is really interesting. Photic sneeze reflex is a genetic autosomal dominant trait, which causes sneezing when exposed suddenly to bright light, possibly many times consecutively. LOL, imagine that. Man, I really love Biology. Why am I in Business anyway? Oh yea, after some research, I realised I usually have migraines without aura. That's very interesting. Ah, and also, in the past, they drill a hole in your head to treat migraines. WOW. How ingenious.

Gotta go catch some sleep soon.

Elison.

미안해.

미안해! 난 요즘 바빴어요...

I'm sorry, I had been busy so I didn't have time to really update.

This picture was taken at riverwalk on saturday when we went for the blood donation drive together. It ended up with only james, jeremy and me donating, cause the rest didn't have their consent forms. I'm so proud of us! We overcame the fear of pain and needles and did our part in saving lives. :)

Anyway, after some encouragement, I finally decided to register for the language test yesterday. The test is this friday. I really hope to do well. 어쩌죠? 아이고...난 자신이없어...

I'm pretty amazed that my cassette player, the one that I've owned since primary school, is still pretty much fully functional! AMAZING huh?

I thought about many things lately. Have I not been doing enough? What is it more that I can do? The things in my heart, who would know and understand? Why are things going the way they are? All the efforts that I've made over the past year just went down the drain like that, and yet I sit here, not being able to do anything at all. Sometimes I take it too hard upon myself. I wish I could just ease a little. I also wish I can be better at it, but why does it seem that everytime I do it, I fail at excelling in it? Oh God, help me to love beyond my own ability. Many times I may not understand, but God, there are things that I still pray for hoping that things will take a turn, yet at the end of it all, my trust is in You. Oh God...제발요...제발.

Elison.

updates.

I really like this shot cause you can see SHINee and Hongki together, but Onew and Minho got cut out... :(

Ahh, anyway, my threadless tees just came! YAY! I'm so happy to finally get the clothes. It took about 2 weeks. But nonetheless it's pretty! :D

See, I haven't registered for my Korean Placement Test, I'm kind of afraid. I don't know if I would be able to do well. Cause I'm using the sogang book and not kyunghee. But I've been studying a lot for it already. And there's oral. I don't know...I don't seem to have much faith. It's like I'm okay talking to my classmates, but talking to the natives gets me tongue-tied and all. Aye...HELP~But I really think that these few days my Korean has improved a lot. New grammar, new ways to form sentences. I guess as I study more grammar, I realised what I studied earlier becomes linguistically and socially irrelevant. This language has SO much to learn! When will I ever master it....ㅠ.ㅠ

Ah, I bet I haven't talked about the book. It's called 황소와 도깨비. It's really interesting. Finally finished hearing the whole story yesterday. But I haven't finished studying it yet. 참, and the writer is very amazing. He died at 27, but at that tender age, he has written many titles and Korean students study his works for literature. Isn't it amazing? 훌륭해요! But poor guy, I don't know why he died so young, so don't ask me. ><

오빠 정말 고맙습니다. 오빠는 없이면, 난 어떻게하면 모르겠어요. 그래서 고마워요. 가르치기 전에 한국말이 영어보다 어려워요.그분이 제일 잘 가르쳐요! 은혜는 평생 잊기 않겠어요.난 약속하고 한국어를 열심히 공부할 거예요.오빠도 영어를 열심히 공부해? "티끌모아 태산."오빠는 기억해? ^^

I like the weather lately. It's not too warm. In fact, it's cooling. 좋아서...

Elison.