dead tired.

I guess I'm still looking like this (referring to the picture above). I thought after a night of sleep I would feel replenished and all, but that is not exactly true. Hence, I resolved that having 2 university examinations in 1 day can actually be quite deadly.

I'll be back again to update with nice pictures after school today. :) My baby is going to school with me. Yay, everyone loves my baby, especially the girls. Hmm, I need suggestions for a name for my baby. Anyone?

Elison.

random post.

Tuesday blues. I've been studying since I woke up this morning but it's been really hard trying to focus on that thick economics textbook. But nonetheless I will blend it and gulp it all down!

It's getting dark outside, I'm not sure if it would rain. And even if it rains, life has to go on, there are places I still have to go and things I still have to do. The rain won't stop me.

I guess I became stronger. I didn't have to fight with tears, it no longer pained me like it used to. Like what Pastor Kong said, God allows us to go through things in our lives not to tear us down, but all so that we can eventually change, be dealt with and move into the greater calling for our lives. Things may not always be easy, but still I'm excited, excited to move towards that calling that God has given to me. 3 years of nursing the dream...I won't let it go.

RAWR, I'm gonna head back to the books. Gotta head down to church office later then meet liang to eat chicken! ^^

toodles~

Elison.

happy 便当!

Yay, this is the happy 便当/ 도시락 lovely and I shared on friday. :D I cooked this to supposedly help me destress...but whatever that happened on the way to school on friday totally defeated the purpose of me cooking.

See, I was just about to leave my house when it started to pour. So I thought I should wait till 1130 and see if the rain gets any lighter. Apparently it didn't. And because I had to rush to Clarke Quay after school, I had no choice but to attend the earlier lecture. So I took the umbrella and went downstairs in an attempt to flag a taxi to school. Within a few minutes, I was drenched waist down despite carrying an umbrella. =.= And all the taxis didn't have NETS! I didn't have cash with me you see. And there was one, there was obviously nets machine, but the uncle refused to take me. So I stood under my umbrella, in the rain, and I started crying cause I felt really pathetic! :( Yes I know. It's very stupid. ><

Doing market research for tomorrow's marketing project meeting. ><

Big fish, plant, worm. I guess yesterday's service made me have a brand new refreshed encounter with God. Perhaps sometimes I really feel like Jonah. There were times I wished I didn't have this calling, or at least something that require lesser, but I guess only God knows what He is doing. No matter how tough, no matter how painful, I will hang in there. No one knows my heart better than He does.

Elison.

beary pillow.

Staring at my awesome pillowcase is sufficient to induce sleep in me. I'm so thankful to God that today is Tuesday. Seriously, I love my timetable because of the mid-week off which makes life easier for me.

Hmm, the examinations are slowly creeping near. I don't think I'm exactly in the studying mode yet, but hopefully I'll get there during recess week next week.

I'm so tired. It's difficult to continue blogging now cause I can still see my pillow on the computer screen! RAWR, I'll be back soon...

Elison.

baby, baby one more time!

Say hello to my new baby!~

Finally, dslr. ^^

Elison.

sun+cloud=smiling tree!

It can't help but contradict. As much as I love marketing, the tutorials are like so hard to do. ><

Okay okay, got to go and finish up on marketing so that I can call up those people who have signed up for drama ministry and schedule them for auditions.

Busy busy.

Elison.

Xiao Guilin

I took this picture of Xiao Guilin when I went cycling today. I was feeling quite sick of LP, so i took my bike and went out to get some fresh air. For the first time, I cycled to Jiani's old house, and on the way, passing by Kyungsoo's house. Ah, passing by Kyungsoo's house made me really miss him! :( For a moment I wished he isn't Korean, but if he isn't, we probably wouldn't have met! =.= But I'm glad that he's doing fine back in Korea, hopefully he'll continue to be that fine when he enlists! ^^

Initially when I first thought of blogging, there were many things that I wanted to say. Now all of a sudden, the words left me. =.= I'll come back again later if they return. =.=

Elison.

AMBER!

Amber is so cute and cool. I can't believe she's so young. ㅠ.ㅠ

After God-knows-how-many hours, I finally completed my statistics tutorial 3! I was trying to keep myself awake the whole time because the entire tutorial was about sampling, variability, experimental design and bias?! =.= Almost died doing that, but thankfully I'm done with it already. But that's not all the homework, there're still 2 more tutorials to go. Management science will so kill me. ㅠ.ㅠ I hope I will score for the presentation on Thursday! ><

I feel like some girl who just broke up with 2 boyfriends. Just an analogy alright.

On the way home from school on Monday, Samuel and I had a talk. He commented that I'm very mature for my age. I beg to differ. If only I was more matured, I won't be in this situation I am in right now. But then again, we learn through the pain. This is my threshing floor, a wilderness experience. It's in the wilderness where the children of Israel found God. Talking to one another should always motivate, impart faith and stir each other to love God more. I hope I'll make a positive impact on this time. I thought about what Samuel said. Sometimes I just feel the same. Whenever I feel like I don't know why life is so tough, why I have to go through all these, all it takes is may be the birds in the air, the wonderful morning breeze or just people who genuinely care for each other to cause me to stand in awe of how great our God is, over His creations, and realise once again that life isn't that bad afterall.

There are too many "maybe"s. Let my yes be a yes and my no be a no. Period.

I haven't played Plants vs Zombies for 2 days. =.= I will do so after I'm done with LP. Bleah...

Elison.

라차타!~

f(x) is the new girl group under SM entertainment. They are a very strong rookie group, i must say. Currently listening to their song 라차타 and trying to read up on calculus and it's application in economics.

Finally, I'm going to leave it and move on. There's no use blaming anymore right? I just want to carry on this fight. Even if I fail, even if I fall, I don't want to give up, because God never gives up on me. I will repent and walk on with God. Although I'm not perfect, but I don't have to be perfect to be worthy of His love. But there's no excuse to remain imperfect, because God is perfect. Moulding, moulding.

"So the last will be first and the first last. For many are called, but few are chosen."

Reality is harsh.

Elison.

busy.

Heaves a sigh of relief. I'm finally done with all the tutorials for tomorrow. This week has been really tough! There's so much work to be done. They are just piling up on me. I wonder how things would go when marketing project and individual assignment kick in. University life is so taxing! :(

I had many thoughts.

Grace says that although I look fine, my mind runs elsewhere.

Circling around thoughts that should not exist.

Exercise control please, brain.

Who should I look to?

I'm too ashamed.

I asked the people around me if I am a bad friend.

No matter what their answers may be, my heart has already reached a conclusion.

Who I am hates who I've been.

It never rains but it pours.

It's not the first.

Elison.