3 weeks before I go home...

I love the fried rice thingy that comes at the end of each meal. SLURPS. I'm gonna miss it a lot when I go back to Sg. :(

This week went by pretty okay. Baby only went back to came on like Tuesday, and managed to get leave for Thursday and Friday, making it easier for me this first week on my own. I hanged out with Pang for dinner, and met Jasmine and Celia as well. :D I guess I'm quite okay! :D

Time really flies... 3 more weeks! Praying that this week would turn out well too! :D

phie.

typhoon no more?

Its pouring crazily outside and there's just gingy and me in the house. I haven't updated this blog very often even though I thought I would while I was overseas, guess there wasn't much need for an outlet to express my emotions especially when I could always turn around and talk to shir baby if there was anything. But now that shir baby has gone back home, I guess I might update this space more than usual.

Actually was kinda sad when shir left. I thank God for this great roomie and companion. The last 4.5 months in Korea had been made much easier because she was with me. Sometimes we clash, but we both learn how to handle conflicts better through this exchange. Maybe I'm just afraid to see how friendships might eventually change by the time we hit back to NUS. Maybe I haven't learned independence enough. Afterall shir was almost with me all the time. I didn't even needed to listen to my ipod the past 4.5 months. Now that she's gone back home, its time for me to take care of myself and grow up! I know many people are worried about me now, like mum, like shir, and her parents. But I guess I will be fine yea. Since my life in Sg was pretty much the same. This month, I will learn not to hate eating out alone, that should be the biggest issue. HAHA.

The first two days when shirlyn was gone, it was quite hard to handle. I kinda got used to always having someone else in my room. I got used to having a companion with me almost everywhere I went, including nightwalks and runs. I got used to lying in our beds and chatting till we are so tired we fall asleep. The first night I almost couldn't sleep. Baby's calls didn't help to make me feel better. i just laid in bed and wept till I dozed off. Day 2 morning, I woke up feeling so drained and depressed. At that point, I really felt like going back home, to where my family and my friends are. I'm so glad 오빠 came over and it really helped a lot. I actually went out for dinner myself! He made me realised that I can have control over my own emotions. So I went out for a 3h plus night walk myself, and enjoyed the solitude I never really had for the past few months. Day 3? I woke up feeling great, except for the part about muscle aches. HEHE

So I guess I'm doing pretty well up to now. School will start tomorrow again and I will meet new people and make new friends. I can cause I talk too much. HAHAHA.

The real adventure only begins NOW.

Stephie.

봄이다~

It's spring. Ah, I haven't been updating my blog as much as I want to, but that's fine cause i've been updating facebook right? Hah, anyway, time really flies! It's already been about 2 and half months since I have left home for Korea...And I guess I've been settling in quite well so far. Spring's been good thus far, still layering, but it's fine with me. However the daily range in temperature is kinda huge, so the tough and difficult part comes when deciding on what to wear.

Watching The Centurion on webcast feels really different...Watching all the familiar faces and voices off the computer makes me miss church a lot. Miss drama ministry... miss sacrificing with everyone... miss having fun at rehearsals, going through all the late nights, waking up at wee hours in the morning to be punctual for call time. :( Missing the newbies, missing my leaders, and of course missing my best friends! But I should enjoy Korea as much as I can for now. Don't want to go back to NUS and bury myself in the hectic schoolwork. sigh....

Stephie.

first post in kimchi land.

Today is a rainy winter day. I slept really little last night so forgive me for this ugly picture. On a rainy winter day, I'm enjoying some me-time eating hot ramyeon in my room. :D love it.

Its been almost 2 weeks since we've arrived in Korea. 2 weeks here seems really long for me too. In the short 2 weeks, Shir and I have been to so many places, met so many people. But then you realise that Seoul isn't really that different from Singapore. Well there are things I really enjoy though, like taking a stroll in the park, walking around a lot on the streets with my friends, climbing up or down a mountain, just enjoying one another's company is enough. Come to think of that, I've never really done that in Singapore? Maybe we don't have enough parks. Haha, but I guess that's what I really enjoy about Korea as of now, the nature - waters, trees, rocks.

I'm still feeling sore about the fact that I have not seen snow. :( after all the excitement, I never got to see snow. =.= As the weather turns cold again this coming week, I really hope there would be some snow. SOME will do. I just need to see it. TT

I think I'm the silliest thing ever. Yesterday I went out without my wallet. And I travelled 1h 30min without realising I didn't have my wallet with me! I was so far from home and it was impossible to return home to get it anymore. So silly. The funnier thing was the same thing happened to my new buddy the day before. Aye, I think we are destined.

love,

phie

pre-departure reality check

photo credit http://kwikiblog.blogspot.com/

Today is exactly 14 days before I leave Singapore. The excitement to go over to Korea seems to be slowly dying away and my reluctance to leave is slowly taking over. Talking to my besties about the things we can't do when I'm not around isn't helping me to soothe away these emotions. There are time I feel bad, leaving everything and everyone I love behind. It makes me feel selfish, as if I'm only concerned about myself and not about the people around me.

But then again, sometimes being accommodating to others means sacrificing something yourself. And I can't accommodate on this one thing. I need to go to Korea. To pursue that excellence in my craft, to be so fluent and natural in my Korean, to experience an independence lifestyle, to go out and see the world. I've held this so close to my heart. At the age of 21, I've never really stood up for much things in my life, except my salvation and my baptism. Going on exchange is the third thing I suppose. I've never been overseas (except malaysia that is literally over-the-sea) and I need that global perspective for my own degree. I don't want to go through university like a typical NUS student, just study for 4 years and graduate. I want to be different. I want to be marketable.

Wait for me till I return. I believe God has great things in store for me when i'm there, and even greater things in store when I come back. I can only trust in the Lord as I physically leave my home church and family. Trust.

I'll leave my goodbye messages till a later date. But for now.

안녕.

phie.

Christmas at the Hero of Faith Academy

Merry belated Christmas everyone!

This production marks my 3rd Christmas production spent with Drama Ministry. This Christmas is the first time in a long while that really made me feel christmasy. I don't usually buy Christmas presents, but this Christmas I made an exception. Even when it burned a really big hole in my pocket, I got gifts to the best of my ability for my close ones. It is fun because when we put our hearts and thoughts to buy someone a gift and they do the same too, it's heartwarming and rewarding. Thanks everyone for all the Christmas cards and gifts... I feel so loved, so loved.

Anyway, the past week has indeed been tiring though. Not getting enough sleep, having an outbreak... It's been making me really down. But thank God that things would always come to an end. Because there's no work today, I can rest my cold a little bit more, and reset my body clock before heading back to office tomorrow. I managed to spend even more time with my drama peeps... chilling out together, shopping, just enjoying each others' company although we were all really tired. Sometimes I even talked without making sense. But it's these mistakes that you make and laugh together over that draws you closer to one another eh? haha.

January is coming. I'm excited. Muahaha, though I'm not going to have a party like other 21 year old kids, I know my 21st would be just as special, spending time with all the lovely people in my life. :D It would be a BLAST. teehee.

phie.

it's coming.

Photo credit naver.com

I received a message from Bingrong last night, reminding me that its less than 2 months to my 21st birthday. Thanks so much for reminding me. =.= Haha. Sometimes I hate being born at the start of the year, because it clashes with the new school term, people keep saying I'm old, and i don't get presents. But there are times when I really like being born at the start of the year. Cause as i approach the new year, I also approach a new age. It kind of helps to set my direction right as I turn another year older, with regards to what have I achieved throughout the year, and what I want to achieve in the coming one.

This birthday, I will turn 21. I will become an adult. 2011. I will go to Korea. Take a plane for the first time. Live without my parents for the first time. 2011. We will move to Suntec. I will miss the first stage for Drama Ministry. I will miss my cell group. I will miss my bffs' birthdays. There are many things to give up for the dream I'm pursuing. This is adulthood maybe?

So many people have said that I am a baby. And they always say that they can expect what I'm going to say and stuff. But is that true? How sure are you that that joking, laughing, noisy Steph is the real her? Haha. It's funny. I'm blessed naturally with great interpersonal skills. I just know how to make people laugh, even when they laugh at me, its okay. cause my objective is to make people happy. But apart from that persona, apart from liking kpop, apart from all that, there is a real me that perhaps not many people know of.

21 is coming. Time to grow up! Recent example of a 21-year-old irks me. =.=

Stephie.